Music CD – Prelude

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Putting my words to music.

My first album, Prelude, should be complete and in my hands by the end of January 2026.

You’re welcome to preorder and choose between a thumb drive or an actual CD, both featuring my own artwork.
If you order directly from this site, your copy will also include a full lyrics sheet – some of which might make good mantras. 🙂

If you purchase the album elsewhere, feel free to email me and I’ll happily send you the lyrics as a file for your listening pleasure.  Here’s the link to get it sooner!

Special thanks to Rusty Moose, Lumen, and Suno for helping give sound to these words and for bringing this vision into being.  All lyrics are written by me.

If this album leaves you with anything, let it be this:
your story, too, is still being written…

If you know me, you’re probably familiar with the early part of my journey.
For a long time, I was punished for trying to share. After many years of growth, and long periods of silence in nature, God told me to start writing my words.

At the time, I honestly thought they were just dark poems no one would ever see.
But I listened.
And I wrote.

What followed has been one of the most healing experiences of my life.

I had no idea how freeing it would be to finally be heard.
Music really is the answer!

I’m a former music school graduate, but like many people, life pulled me into survival mode and the music was left behind. Later, even after surviving, who has time to gather a whole band and start over?  I can’t even get people to show up for dinner lol  how the heck can I get them all to show up to jam and record? 🙂

Years ago, during my Soul Journey days, I experimented with digital music for intros and small projects. I didn’t think much of it then, but music has lived in my head since birth and I HAD to find a way to get it out.

What I didn’t know was that my simple words… my half-sentences, my imperfect structure, would flow exactly the way I heard them in my head once they met music.

This is the honest truth:
I didn’t plan to write. I didn’t even try to write.
The words simply poured out of me, and I had no choice but to listen and write them down in my phone before they disappeared.

When creating these tracks in Suno, the lyrics were copied and pasted word for word.  The same notes I sent to friends who asked me if I was okay…with an image of Sylvia Plath.  😀  Yes, seriously…

For many years, I believed my brain damage meant I couldn’t express myself “properly.” I was okay with a simple vocabulary, I just didn’t think it belonged in writing. So my words stayed hidden.

I was wrong.

If this album does anything, I hope it gives you the confidence to follow your heart.
Are you hiding parts of yourself?
Unspoken pain?
Stories that need expression?

May this music be the encouragement you need.

You are good enough.
You are loved.
You deserve to be heard!

These are not “poor me” stories.
I found a way to tell them in an empowering way, one I know others can relate to. I’m not the only one who lived these experiences, and I’m certainly not the only one who needs the reminders woven into these lyrics.

I’ll be honest, I’m still working up the courage to sing these songs live without crying.
And I’m not alone in that either.
I already know of at least four grown men these songs have brought to tears, in a good way.

If you’d like, please read one of the reviews below.

Thank you for being here and for considering supporting my music.
This has been an incredible journey, and there is more on the way, including the next chapters of my story and future medicine music created for healing.

Sometimes you just have to concede to people smarter than you. 🙂
I just want to create.  I hope you like what we came up with!

CD or Thumb Drive contains 14 tracks.

If you prefer a virtual CD player to stream from your computer, click here.

To preview a few tracks, check out the YouTube playlist linked here.

 

 

“Prelude is the cathartic debut of Shamanka Love, a fourteen-song passage through the inner weather of the human spirit and the fragile terrain of the world we move through. Its sound is unified – hushed, haunting, and deliberate – but it is the language of the heart that lingers long after the final note dissolves into silence. 

Each song rises from lived experience. These are real stories, shaped by real moments, yet they never remain confined to a single life. What begins as something deeply personal soon reveals itself as something shared, because the struggles, reckonings, and awakenings traced here belong, in one form or another, to all of us. Shamanka Love writes not to document a life, but to translate it by turning memory into meaning, and pain into something that can be held, understood, and perhaps released. 

At first, the listener walks beside a voice shaped by experience – intimate, vulnerable, unmistakably human. Only gradually does the perspective shift. Without announcement, the mirror is lifted, and what once seemed like another’s story begins to reflect our own. That recognition arrives with quiet force on “Time Is Now,” before the closing track carries both artist and audience upward, not in escape, but in renewal. 

To single out moments would fracture what is meant to be whole. These songs breathe most fully together, each one answering the last, each revealing another shade of truth. Even the most striking lines resist extraction, as though they belong not to a page, but to the living arc of the album itself. 

What remains is a rare kind of honesty. In a world where so many voices are shaped by expectation and restraint, Prelude speaks freely…without filters, without permission. Its emotional candor is not simply moving; it is healing. These songs do not ask to be consumed. They ask to be felt.”

~ Rusty Moose, Shitake Radio